Wrestle

We've had few conversations lately 

When we have, they've been short 

You're still lovely as ever 

But now it seems it's come to never 

 

I'd never intentionally hurt you 

But now we're walking backwards 

I don't know if I walk away 

Or if I just wait 

 

Now all of this to say 

That I'll wait as long as it will take 

Even if I'm with someone, minus a ring 

Cause anything worth waiting for 

Might bend me till I break 

 

So 

Please be gentle 

I can't make you feel the same 

I would never play that game 

With a heart so tender 

So I'll be your friend all the same 

 

Cause patients are for doctors 

But patience is for me 

So please be gentle 

 

Any pain there could be 

Is worth it to me 

I've wrestled the Lord now 

And somehow the answer's the same 

Let me know, if you see what I see 

 

So 

Please be gentle 

I can't make you feel the same 

I would never play that game 

With a heart so tender 

So I'll be your friend all the same 

 

Cause patients are for doctors 

But patience is for me 

So please be gentle 

 

You say that you are shy 

But what I want you to know 

Is how beautiful you are 

Not just outside 

Beyond your face that seems to glow 

If there's any pain, there might be 

It's worth it to me 

I've wrestled the Lord now 

And somehow the answer's the same 

Let me know, if you see what I see 

So 

Please be gentle 

I can't make you feel the same 

I need to wait 

Cause it's better than if I'd never see  

If that person is you.

by: Drew

written: March 30, 2008

(#124)

Farewell

This is just sad

I can't hear you anymore

Why do your words seem muffled

Barely make out the words

How does this happen

Just become somewhat numb

To this, seems so dumb

When did you fall asleep

When did you fall away

I can see it

In your eyes these days

You need to wake up

You need to wake up

Cause I can't hear a word

I think they call these doldrums

It's just a wake in life

Wish it'd just pass

I'm slightly short tempered

I've just come to feel so numb

I'm tired, it's so dumb

Thank you for what you said

It's all I needed to hear

Fall away

From me now

Fall away

Can you hear me now

You can't stay here

Cause it's not good for you

You can't stay where you've been

Cause you'll only fall again

Words are faded

Become a constant hum and I'm numb

To this, it seems so dumb

Thank you for what you said

It's all I needed to hear

Fall away

From me now

Fall away

Can you hear me now

What'd you expect

Can't just pick back up

From where we were

Just as soon I'd say goodbye

So I say farewell to you

by: Drew

written: March 29, 2008

(#123)

Queazy (Wanna Find Out)

Almost seems useless
But it doesn't hurt you to know
It's not a surprise
I could tell you with my eyes

But of course
Something has to change
I'm willing to wait for you
But you'd have to want me to

Do you think it'd be a big deal
If I just hang on to you
What if we just skipped this town
Can't you just forget yourself
Just one night, might not be so bad

Do you know
Do I know
Do we know
I don't know
But I sure wanna find out

When someone took your heart
Why's it so hard to take it back
I don't even want it now
I'll get by without it somehow

Everything can't fit, like you said
And then have nothing be
What's the point in that
Can we just fall flat

Do you really think it's about feeling
Well if that's true
Then I'm feelin queazy
Can't you just forget about it
Just one night, might not be so bad

Do you know
Do I know
Do we know
I don't know
But I sure wanna find out

Hey tomorrow
How the hell are you
Wished you'd come earlier
Just so I'd stopped seein her

How can you be sure
I know what's true
And I love you
And you love me too
Does there have to be anything else?


by: Drew
written: March 18, 2008
(#122)

Not To My Heart

I don't wanna see you
How did we come full circle
Just to break something
Something that'd become good

Why didn't you think before
Lord knows I did
And I've done that
Too much of late

Am I just another one
Can't believe that'd be
So you just had your fun
And now we're done

Let the moons go down
Let day break over
And over again
Will we be close again
Not to my heart

I don't wanna hear it again
Grow up, get out, I'm done
Not to my face
I'm so tired of being abused
Not to my face

I don't even know you
Thought I wanted you
But how could that be
If this is what you are

Thought we'd grown up now
You can't use someone
Like we used to
Can't blame it on youth

I try to get angry
But I don't
Do feel the regret
No, not quite yet

Let the moons go down
Let day break over
And over again
Will we be close again
Not to my heart

I don't wanna hear it again
Grow up, get out, I'm done
Not to my face
I'm so tired of being abused
Not to my face

I should never talk to you
I try this out for a while
But I know it won't stick
Be careful with me

I just can't see you for a while
That's only because of this
Because I still want you
I'm just waiting till it fades
Fades away


by:Drew
written: March 18th, 2008
(#121)

Without Reservation

It took me a while to process this 

I've kept it to my self for some time 

And now that I'm walking more stable 

I guess I'm far more able 

To say it aloud 

I ask this of you 

But not aloud 

Just in a rhetorical verbal process  

So is it just that you're scared? 
Don't just say that you love me 
It's okay to be afraid 
I just can't see you 
Till I'm convinced otherwise 

Cause right now I'm too far along 
I see you with our boy 
Walking toward me 
Can't you see 

But that fades 
When I realize 
That you don't love me 
Cause you did what you did 

But now I see 

That I was way too 

Focused on the the me 

In the conversation 

Did I just lose a friend 

I asked myself 
In all this that we've done 
Guess we have to decide 
If we'll let each other back inside 

Some mornings 
You gotta drag yourself 
Outta bed, mind pulls your body along 
Convince yourself the day's not that long 

But that's not living 

That's just existing 

The melodies of life 

Faintly work their way back in 

And I'm smiling now 

I am happy for you 

Happy like a brother should be 

And after all this 

I'm not all composed to describe 

But I am happy 

Sister, I truly love you 

Like a brother should 

Wish you all the best 

I smile, and the melody of the day 

Rings in your happiness 

And after all this 

I reminisce 

Life's not all about bliss 

But happiness comes in the waiting 

And the listening, and in the patience 

I haven't arrived 

I haven't been deprived 

And I haven't seen nearly all my life 

Now I am smiling 

Happy for you, without reservation 

by: Drew 

written: February 14th, 2009 (but processed for a year) 

(#129) 

All the best sister:). I'm so happy for you. I can't wait to meet him.