Whole Man

Seperate and scattered
I feel like half what I was
Yesterday (sustain)
Battered and beaten
I am worn out now

Weightlessness holds me down
I finally feel it
No panicked breathes to drown in it
I finally feel it
What it feels like to not feel its weight
I finally feel it
And it feels like nothing at all

Busted and blown
I am just not as much as I used to be
Yesterday (sustain)
Scattered and scuffed
I am less now

Torn and tattered
I walk a weaker state than
Yesterday (sustain)
Hagard and hopeless
I walk slow now

Fallen and forgotten
Can I be picked up, dusted off?
Today (sustain)
Fragmented and fragile
Can I feel it now?

by: Drew
May 8, 2003 thru May 21, 2003
(#30)

Complete In Me

Oh I'm in a desperate state of love/ My heart just can't relate/ How am I supposed to love/ I just need a forceful shove/ My fleeting plans/ And fickle heart/ Constantly letting me down/ Not letting me out/ Break free of this noise aroun(d)/ Break free to spit and shout / Lord make Your will/ Make Your will complete/ Complete/ Complete in me / My false confidence/ And hollow pride/ Constantly letting me down/ Never letting me go/ Break free of this shallow soun(d)/ Break free, my hands I throw / Lord make Your will/ Make Your will complete/ Complete/ Complete in me / My mess of love/ And bum, weary heart/ Constantly letting me down/ How could they ever know/ Break free of broken heart surround/ Break free to finally grow / Lord make Your will/ Make Your will complete/ Complete/ Complete in me / I know that it's only in You/ This mess of love displayed/ Can ever be made true/ You've pieced back my disarray/ You've freed me to say...


by: Drew
May 5, 2003
(#27)

I wrote this when I was wanting my desires to line up with Your desires. I don't know what love is, but I know that You know what it is. I can let Me down, but You never will.

Don't Live In Fear

Working thru all these feelings of regret
I just want you to see and let
The way you say you feel so small
Let it go and I'll bet...

There's no one here that holds that against you
And even if there was, don't let it get you
Get you to believe the lie you hear
That says you life is no longer sweet
And please don't live in fear
That you'll just hurt me dear
Oh oh oh... I know

Feeling like you're just like everyone you've met
I just want you to see and not let
Your faults push you up against the wall
The way you see ain't met.

There's no one here that holds that against you
And even if there was, don't let it get you
Get you to believe the lie you hear
That says you life is no longer sweet
And please don't live in fear
That you'll just hurt me dear
Oh oh oh... I know

Walkin' now in the rain, you're so wet
I just hope this rain helps you forget
Any regret you hold onto at all
Let it go and I'll bet...

There's no one here that holds that against you
And even if there was, don't let it get you
Get you to believe the lie you hear
That says you life is no longer sweet
And please don't live in fear
That you'll just hurt me dear
Oh oh oh... you know...

There's no one here that holds that against you
Don't live in fear because I know you
Wanting to let go of the lie
That is the first step to live that life that's sweet and true.


by: Drew
January 26, 2003
(#26)

This was written for a friend of mine, Megan. At the time, she was really having a tough time forgiving herself for some things she had done in her life. Enjoy your song Megan!!

Free to Live Now

I have always feared,
That my mistakes would catch,
Up to me,
Feared I'd never find,
Piece of mind,
And that my life would just be.

I'm always saying I'm sorry
And sometimes I don't know why
Apologizing for my past
And what I can't change and I am...
Free to Live Now

I fear I'll never change,
That I'll never learn how,
To just get past,
This cage that's inside,
Holding my mind,
And not letting me live out of the shadow cast.

I'm always saying I'm sorry
And sometimes I don't know why
Apologizing for my past
And what I can't change and I am...
Free to Live Now

Despite the fear deep down,
I know what I should be,
But not how.
Cause that's the hardest kind,
You will soon find,
That you being me are free to live now.

I'm always saying I'm sorry
And sometimes I don't know why
Apologizing for my past
And what I can't change and I am...
Free to live
Free to live
Free to Live Now

by: Drew
Title - September 29, 2002
Words - January 26, 2003
(#25)

This is another one that I wrote in pieces. This was written in desperation, thinking that I'd never lived up to my potential, yet knowing what I'm supposed to do. I fear that my ways will never change, but I can know that I am "free to live now!"

Rest Beyond Me

I just know it's not me
Cause I never sit for a while
Tired from always moving
I cry out to you a smile
And I think of,

When has patience ever been
Something that I listen to
It cries for my attention
Like a soft breeze it blew
Wispering to me...

You give me
Rest beyond me
Patience to just see
You say listen to me
Rest beyond me
and then I
Rest beyond me

Teaching me what it is
To just be silent and remain
Able to hear your voice
Despite the downpour of rain
It implores me to say...

You give me...
... Rest beyond me

The blue sky testifies
To how vast you truly are
Never will I truly comprehend
How wide, how deep, how far
But I do know...

You give me...
... Rest beyond me

When dark clouds try
To cover this vast horizon
Dark storm clouds roll on
And thunder rolls in
My weary eyes turn upwards
In resolution to what I know
My heart lives at unrest
Untill you just show...

You give me
Rest beyond me
Rest beyond me
Rest beyond me

by: Drew
Title - September 16, 2002
Words - May 6, 2003
(#28)

Kind of funny, I wrote the title knowing I wanted to write something with Rest Beyond Me as the title and then the words came later.

Your Reality

I know I don't deserve your hand,
But please just let me be good friend.
Now I finally think I understand,
What it is to cherish more than me.

Your hand slowly melts into mine,
I enjoy the silence that we share.
Without words it is just fine,
Sometimes silence says so much more.

I think that I'm in love with just lovin' you,
Not just lovin' who you were then,
Or just how you look, that's a shallow way too.
Your depth is what pulls me to you.
I'm in love with, I'm in love with you.

Why do I always try to make it funny?
Do you hide behind the humor?
We're just floating, warm n sunny,
It makes me think about your questions.

You're not afraid to be honest,
Sometimes that's so hard to do.
I know you just try to be modest,
But your reality breaks through the cloud.

Storms rise up, clouding what's true;
These clouds, the clouds of uncertain,
Your heart breaks right through.
You show you love by your reality.

Your reality is what pulls me in,
I'm in love with you, just in love with lovin' you.


by: Drew
September 11, 2002
(#23)

To This Road's End

Oh, walking down a path,
The light fades thru the trees,
My mind slowly looks to the road behind.

I don't even see how,
I was oh so blind till now,
To the way you wanted.

I miss the faith of a child
When I blindly held your hand
You said you'd walk with me
To this road's end
You said you'd walk with me
To this road's end

Please just hold me here,
And please hold me dear,
Close to your heart, again.

I miss the faith of a child
When I blindly held your hand
You said you'd walk with me
To this road's end
You said you'd walk with me
To this road's end

A void I can not fill,
I'm frozen, standing still,
Don't want to move.

I miss the faith of a child
When I blindly held your hand
You said you'd walk with me
To this road's end
You said you'd walk with me
To this road's end

by: Drew
September 2, 2002
(#22)

All This Rejection

A little girl just wants to be loved
And she know what's really important
Tells me not to give up on my friends
I hate to see you like this, she says

You say you're tired of all these rejections
You're tired of all these rejections
Too many exchanges of effections
Always being set aside
When will you find
Yourself deep inside
And know you're not alone?

A little boy just needs to be loved
Feels so hurt and used up
Wants to just forget about it all and go
I long to grow up, he says

A father just deserves to be loved
He knows what you feel now
And has even been there
I love and know you, he says

He knows you're tired of these rejections
You're so tired of these rejections
He'll redeem these exchanges of effections
It's not all for naught
Yourself you have fought
But all the love you sought
You have already got.

by: Drew
June 23, 2002
(#21).

This is for a friend of mine who, at the time, saw my synical view of some friends and she implored me not to give up on my friends. Sarah said that she hated seeing me like this. Also, she had said that she was tired of all the rejections that she received from boys, and was tired of exchanging effection.

Pride with Pain

So many times I just don't want to give it up.
I need to let go of the past of pride,
Need to let go of the pain deep inside,
Let go of my life and my past of pride.

Somethin' inside me
Tells me my pride with pain
Will only tear me down,
And it tears me down,
It tears me down.

So many times, I beat myself deep inside.
Only you can quiet the pain,
Make me whole once again,
You whisper to me that you'll quiet the pain.

Truly loving the sunlight can only be,
It can only be from
Having no sun at all,
But now the warmth of the sunlight will come.

If I had no sun at all
I could not live at all
But now I feel the warmth of the Son.


by: Drew
Spring 2002
(#24)

A Daisy & Butterfly

Oh can I be the one
To wipe your tears away,
The one who stands there
When the day fades to grey?

When clouds darken the sky, can I
Hold a candle with you;
Be the one to kiss you,
And be there when, when the day is thru?

I want to catch you a butterfly,
Put a daisy in your hair,
Chase you thru a field,
Child-like without a care.

Could we just pretend I never broke your heart?
Could I hold you & forget the past?
Could you hold me close again?
Could the time I saw you not be the last?

I want to catch you...
... without a care.

When clouds darken the sky, can I
Hold a candle with you;
Be the one to kiss you
And be there when the day is thru?
I'm just a boy asking you
With this daisy & butterfly to love me too.

I want to catch you...
... without a care.

by: Drew
Spring 2002
(#20)

Break of Night, Dawn of Day

Mom always told me
You're my friend,
Mom was always right
And now I see
That when the days end,
I'm in your sight, and then...

When I wake, When I rise
You are there, I rub my eyes
Break of night, Dawn of day
You are there, When I pray

It never fails
To meet me at the end.
It brings to close,
Sets dreams' sails.
It is day's end, n'
The moon rose, and then...

When I wake, When I rise
You are there, I rub my eyes
Break of night, Dawn of day
You are there, When I pray

You're not just a friend,
You love me more
More than I could.
I'm not able to send,
Anyone's ship to that shore
Where to be I should

I close my eyes,
Slowly the day dies.
I dream peacefully thru
Then day comes anew...

When I wake, When I rise
You are there, I rub my eyes
Break of night, Dawn of day
You are there, When I pray

When I wake, When I rise
You are there, I rub my eyes
Break of night, Dawn of day
You are there, When I pray

by: Drew
Spring 2002
(#19)

Not Right Now

I think I need...
Someone to Be there,
Someone to Touch,
Someone to Hold me,
When it's too much.
But... Not right now~

Just be satisfied,
You tell me once and again;
Be whole in me,
And think not on things of then.
But do I listen...

No, I think I need...
Someone to Love me,
Someone to Care,
Someone to Talk to,
When no one else it there.
But... Not right now~

Just be patient,
You softly implore me again;
Act not in haste,
And just forget ways of then.
But I turn my head...

I know what I need...
Someone who needs me,
Someone like her,
Someone so tender,
When I remember what we were.
But... Not right now~

Just be calm,
You ease my heart again;
Let her go now,
And think not of then.
But this time I understand.

Was she the one?
Did I let go of my only one...
It pains me just to think,
But ignorance will leave me lonely.
I can't turn my ear aside,
All my tears wiped away.
I can let go
I'll take what comes now.


by: Drew
Spring 2002
(#18)

Where Are We?

WHERE ARE WE
I HAVE TO KNOW
JUST TELL ME
CAUSE I ALMOST FORGOT WHAT IT FEELS LIKE
YOU BROUGHT BACK TO MIND
HOW IT FEELS TO FEEL THIS REAL,
TO REMEMBER WHAT LOVE IS.

I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER HOW IT BEGAN,
I FELL TOO FAST
THERE WAS SOMETHING ABOUT THE WAY YOU LAUGHED,
THE GAZE YOU CAST.

YOUR PAST IS BROKEN LIKE MINE,
YOU LOST THAT GIFT.
HE FORGAVE US MUCH,
GAVE US BACK THE GIFT.

WHERE ARE WE...
... TO REMEMBER WHAT LOVE IS.

YOU DON'T NEED TO PROVE ANYTHING,
THAT YOU KNOW.
HOW YOU ARE IN A HUMOR FEW UNDERSTAND,
YOU I WANNA KNOW.

DO WE HAVE TO COMMIT TO ANYTHING NOW,
I JUST WANNA SEE YOU.
LEARN WHAT BURNS INSIDE YOUR HEART,
CAN WE START SOMETHING NEW.

WHERE ARE WE...
... TO REMEMBER WHAT LOVE IS.

I KNOW HE HURT YOU AND YOU HURT YOURSELF,
BUT LEAVE IT BEHIND.
YOU ARE FORGIVEN OF ALL,
EASE YOUR MIND.

NOW I BEG TO KNOW YOU MORE,
DO YOU SEE IN ME;
YOU HELD MY HAND IN THE DARKNESS,
OPEN MY EYES TO SEE.

WHERE ARE WE...
... TO REMEMBER WHAT LOVE IS.

I AM NAIVE AND LOST,
BUT ALLOW ME TO HOLD YOUR HAND AGAIN.
CAN I JUST WALK WITH YOU,
LET GO OF THE FEAR THAT HAS BEEN...


by: drew
spring 2002
(#17)

I Forgot

I don't even know, is this real?
Lemme tell you how I feel, my tale we'll look at.
I'd like to tell you why I'm scared,
You're not supposed to talk about things like that.

Where did I go wrong,
Where did i miss,
Where did I let go,
And how do I get back?
I don't even know,
I'm just scared I'll never make it back.

I don't even know, is this real?
Lemme tell you how I feel, my tale we'll look at.
I'd like to tell you why I'm scared,
You're not supposed to talk about things like that.

Did I fool myself,
Did I try too hard,
Did I break a solemn vow,
And how do I get back?
I need you to show me how,
I'm just scared I'll never make it back.

I don't even know, is this real?
Lemme tell you how I feel, my tale we'll look at.
I'd like to tell you why I'm scared,
You're not supposed to talk about things like that.

Why do I feel dead,
Why am I so cold,
Why is my body weak,
And how do I get back?
Somethin' more that this I seek,
And I'm just scared I'll never make it back.

I don't even know, is this real?
Lemme tell you how I feel, my tale we'll look at.
I'd like to tell you why I'm scared,
You're not supposed to talk about things like that.

How does life get so long,
How do you rise from a tomb,
How am I so alone,
And how do I get back?
My body's cood as stone,
I'm just scared I'll never make it back.

I don't even know, is this real?
Lemme tell you how I feel, my tale we'll look at.
I'd like to tell you why I'm scared,
You're not supposed to talk about things like that.
They make people talk,
People talk too much.


by: Drew
Spring 2002
(#16)