Vision is Only One of Five

An unsensed fear

That I'll have none left for me

I will live that fear

You say believe in what I can't see

But I do see

Where is this disconnect?
Why do we feel disoriented, out of context?
You say you probably can't make it out
So what happened along the way?
How'd we lose touch?

Vision is only half with these eyes

The rest is with these pages

Given to aid these eyes

Vision is only one of five

But it is one that burns memories
In our mind

Fears are not realized
If you fear something that never comes
Despite this, I never realized
All these subtractions, I add the sums
Clear eyes and vision comes

Doldrums on a wake in my mind
You ask, do I ever feel like a misfit?
Well life does drone on and on
Do you feel out-of-sorts?
Do you ever feel like a ragamuffin?

Vision is only half with these eyes

The rest is with these pages

Given to aid these eyes

Vision is only one of five

But it is one that burns memories
In our mind

Sun seems so bright
But am I just looking outside?
Can I only half as bright?
Am I meant to be on the other side
I just need some movement, to the outside

It's so much greener
So much brighter than here
Are you gonna let it glow?
There's plenty of space to move
Don't let memories weigh you down

Vision is only half with these eyes

The rest is with these pages

Given to aid these eyes

Vision is only one of five

But it is one that burns memories
In our mind

It's half with these eyes

But also with these pages

Vision is only one of five

But memories burn in my mind
They burn less with more time


by: Drew
written: April 24, 2008
(#126)

Blood Returns

It seems so long and belated 
Same thing, again and again 
Is it that difficult to find 
Is there an answer 
 
It makes me question myself 
Am I doing something wrong 
Do I come off too strong 
Am I living in the past 
 
I wait while the blood returns 
To my body 
Living in the past 
Will do that to you 
Slap my face, blood returns 
I'll just sit while blood returns 
 
It seems to me, hard to see 
If I'm waiting for my ship to come in 
Then maybe I'll miss it 
Cause my lantern's not lit 
 
It's like chasing a breeze 
Can't grasp, can't feel 
With all we meant to each other 
There's not a call, not a word 
 
I wait while the blood returns 
To my body 
Living in the past 
Will do that to you 
Slap my face, blood returns 
I'll just sit while blood returns 
 
It seems like so long ago 
My shoes seem brand new 
Cause I haven't run through your mind 
In quite some time 
 
It doesn't make sense 
Why am I so off kilter lately 
I should show some teeth 
Close my eyes, reset my mind 
 
I wait while the blood returns 
To my body 
Living in the past 
Will do that to you 
Slap my face, blood returns 
I'll just sit while blood returns 
 
It's not that there's no time 

It's just that I'll only ask one more time 

I can't bear to drag it out 

As if there was a reason 

 

It's all laid out on a timeline 

There's ups and down 

But two years now, nothing's moved 

How is that 

 

I wait while the blood returns 
To my body 
Living in the past 
Will do that to you 
Slap my face, blood returns 
I'll just sit while blood returns 

 

It doesn't make sense 

That you can't offer anything better 

Than what you said 

We'll never look at each other the same 

 

It doesn't have to be all bad 

Let your face glow, smile awhile 

Just cause I won't see you much 

That's just how it has to be 

 

I wait while the blood returns 
To my body 
Living in the past 
Will do that to you 
Slap my face, blood returns 
I'll just sit while blood returns 

 

It has to resolve somehow 

What a mess we've made 

Things will turn up 

Just smile 

 

You don't have to hear or see me 

To know that we're okay 

I just can't see you 

Till I deal with the past 

 

I slap my face 

The blood returns 

Leave past with past 

I'll be around, dear 

by: Drew

written: April 2, 2008

(#125)