Crayons

You always say you wish you could do it different

You feel you always get the raw end

You don't get back what you give

Seems to me

There's too many "you"s in your thinking

We never claimed living was easy

Sometimes it helps to take it back to crayons and colored pencils
Color your world like a child
We could all do with
A little childish nature
To make this grown up world not so bad

Please listen as I say,
"You have to face your mistakes
Do whatever it takes to change.
There is no would be, should be, or could have been
There's just what is and what will be
And it's not always what we see initially."

You start shaking and you're laughing out loud
Choose your words carefully
Cause like a knife
Once you cut you can't take it back
You're not a boy anymore
There will be consequences

You've been working too hard and too long
You need to breathe
You need to play

Please listen as I say,
"You have to face your mistakes
Do whatever it takes to change.
There is no would be, should be, or could have been
There's just what is and what will be
And it's not always what we see initially."

I can see your face now
I can't help but feel different than you
I've been talking to myself lately
Now I just have to turn it off
And walk...

Just listen one last time.
Your mistakes are done
Do whatever it takes to get past them
There is no would be, should be, or could have been
There's just what is and what will be
So please wake up and see


by: DReW
written: February 9, 2008
(#119)

Your Love Is Red

Climb your way

Up the clouds

Maybe you can reach heaven

Sun doesn't seem that far away

Maybe it just wants to play

All I ever wanted was love
But I saw in Black & White
Didn't see that love has color
Your love is Red...

Diving in a pool of past

Can't get soaked

Lest I drown in what I was

Drifting out to sea

How did this pool reach the ocean?

Knew I shouldn't have let it cover me

Now I'm out to sea

Drifting out to sea
Washed up on loveless shore
Heavy heart made you sink

All I ever wanted was love
But I saw in Black & White
Didn't see that love has color
Your love is Red...

Dust clouds surround
The crash site of
A broken man that I've found
Flew too high
Couldn't see the warning signs
You were never alone
You can't build a tower
Or fly high enough
To get there alone

All I ever wanted was love
But I saw in Black & White
Didn't see that love has color
Your love is Red...

I've said, I'm not going to take this sitting down
I'm not gonna just stand and wait around
But if I'd just turned around
I'd see love waiting for me to slow & see
That your love is Red...
And I am gray
But what do I know about color
Or love or clouds or seas

All I ever wanted was love
But I saw in Black & White
Didn't see that love has color
Your love is Red...

If I'd just turned around
I'd see love waiting there for me just to see
That your love is Red...
And I am gray


by: Drew
written: February 9, 2008
(#118)

This Taste

Light fades in
Darkness fades out
Frustration sets in
And careless words go out

This taste on my lips
Can't be the best there is

Cause if it is, there is
No romance left in me

And there is, I know it

Just wish I could show it
But not to you, not by me
But it's out there somewhere
Out there in between...

Broken hearts & diamond rings

Are a world apart

But they are the things

Of songs we sing

Can't you even control it
Comes out like you can't hold it
But it bites, and cuts the one
You're talking to
And the one it's about

Like tender morsels
They go down
But when it's inside you
Your mind has mulled it over
Bitter is all you taste...

Broken hearts & diamond rings

Are a world apart

But they are the things

Of songs we sing

Yeah, maybe he needs to cool it
But it's not your job to talk it
To all your confidants
And anyone, and everyone
Besides the one you should

We're grown up now
And sometimes our biggest enemy
Is the one so hard to tame
Your tongue is loose
Can't you even control it?

Broken hearts & diamond rings

Are a world apart

But they are the things

Of songs we sing

Truth is better than romance
Stands a test of time
Smooth words turn bitter
When they fall on broken ears
All I know is that I'm tired...

These broken hearts & diamond rings

Are worlds apart

But they are the things

Of songs we sing

This taste is all reality now
Can't sense anything past it
But we have to forgive and let go now
If we don't then this taste
Will turn us outside-in

Worlds apart they may be
Yet these are things of songs we sing


by: Drew
written: February 12, 2008
(#120)

The Sound of Letting Go

So was I born blind

To reality about what it takes?

Feel like I'm always

One step behind

In so many ways

Haven't slept well

In over two weeks

You can wipe a slate clean

But not a memory

From what I've seen

Alone doesn't seem

That far away

I can't be the only one

With this look on my face

Can't seem to see the sun

Just let it go

Don't make a scene

Let's not make this more

Than it has to be

So just let it go...

This is the sound

Of letting go

Quieter than I'd think

That it would be

Just missed a link

Letting go is not so bad

Cause when your hand releases

It just means you hold on

To something else

Something worth holding on

Just let it go

Don't make a scene

Let's not make this more

Than it has to be

So just let it go...

Not much has really changed

So I don't see

What's the big deal

Just floating like a fog

We're evaporating, it's real

As the sun comes up

Your flare for excuses fades

I don't want to push the issue

Cause if you don't want it

Call what's true... true

Just let it go

Don't make a scene

Let's not make this more

Than it has to be

So just let it go...

It's not complicated

We're frustrated

But this has become

So much clearer

With morning come

by: Drew

written: January 23, 2008

(#117)

Thousand Miles Away

A pebble in streams

Flowers in fields

Rocks on mountain sides

Wind from God knows where

I could move a thousand miles away

But I'd still be right here

Where I am now

I can't escape it

Can't even fake it

It's alright

Cause past is past

It went by so fast

And you know I'm the last

That'd hold that against you

On a windy street in Chicago

There's a man

Who'd give anything

To swap cities with me

But what's the use

I could move a thousand miles away

But I'd still be right here

Where I am now

I can't escape it

Can't even fake it

It's not so much a state

But a state of mind

How can fields and streams

Seem like prison

It's only in my head

It's alright

Cause past is past

And you know I'm the last

That'd hold that against you

I could move a thousand miles away

But I'd still be right here

Where I am now

I can't escape it

Can't even fake it

A young boy

Sits alone on the beach

Staring at the waves

Wishing for some place else

He doesn't even know where

It's alright

Cause past is past

And good things don't always last

So just let's let this lie

I could move a thousand miles away

But I'd still be right here

Where I am now

I can't belate it

Cause this is how we made it

So I'll say good night

And go

by: dREW

written: January 23, 2008

(#116)

All For The Best

Haven't slept well

Two weeks now

Blank I feel

You would have said something

If you'd cared

After what I said

Least you could say

Is... something

Maybe it's all for the best

If that's true, I'd give up best

If I could just rest

Just rest...

Are we playing

Keep away from me

Feels like that

Maybe it's all

For the best

Or is that just a saying

To make us feel better

But I don't feel better

Maybe it's all for the best

If that's true, I'd give up best

If I could just rest

Just rest...

I walk alone in the garden

You should try it sometime

Solo is not so bad

Conversations are no less

Just to yourself

You'd be amazed at what you learn

When you just listen

Under moonlight

Maybe it's all for the best

If that's true, I'd give up best

If I could just rest

But I can't like this

The rest of us are watching

Thinking there's something better

Never satisfied with now and hear

My dear, just listen

I don't even want you

Under the old willow

Leaving doesn't seem so bad

I might come back

Mights turn into won'ts

Maybe it's all for the best

If that's true, I'd give up best

If I could just rest

I'd think clearly

In the morning

by: DReW

written: January 22, 2008

(#115)

Not Like This

I hate this

I never should have said a thing

Was it always about me?

Mistakes are funny that way

No matter how far away

They still are always

What was wrong

Cause I never thought it'd turn out

Not like this

Never like this

Don't wanna fake it

This memory of you

Just wanna take it

Away from here

Make it go away

I hate how this

Has turned out like this

Why I say why?

Misdirected and misunderstood

I was younger, and I should

Have slowed n understood

What was wrong

Cause I never thought it'd turn out

Not like this

Never like this

Don't wanna fake it

This memory of you

Just wanna take it

Away from here

Make it go away

Saw him today

The man who hurt you so bad

Remember you forgave him

And you asked me that question

What if daddy never forgave

And I reassured you He gave

Far more than that

Cause I never thought it'd turn out

Not like this

Never like this

Don't wanna fake it

This memory of you

Just wanna take it

Away from here

Make it go away

I've wished this so many times

Now it seems

I can only walk away

I won't see you as much as before

Sorry I made u feel that way

They say it's never too late

But it seems that way

Good night

See you around

See you later

by: dRew

written: January 20, 2008

(#113)

written for someone who used to be a dear dear friend. some things in life just have to be let go of. this friendship seems to be one of those things. i see her sometimes, but it's never really a friendship. apparently i creeped her out, and that hurts me more than anything. that's enough to bring tears to my eyes. thinking back to how much we've shared and invested, i'm just so sad about it whenever i even think about it. i try not to much anymore. maybe that's bad. it's a way of coping. well, barefoot girl, hope we can trust each other again some day...

Run Run

Speak no

Not a word from you

We've said enough

Words are not

What says so much

Sometimes nothing is more

Sometimes you need to just

Run run

Fly fly

Cry cry

It's easy

To sit back

And place the blame

Words can't say

What actions deny

Sometimes actions are more

Sometimes you need to just

Run run

Fall fall

Call call

I'm drifting

To that place

Don't need it

Words are so

Much more than

Just what we needed

Won't you just please

Drop drop down

Run run

Fun fun

Not like this

Not now

Our plans

Our dreams

Not what it seems

When I was young

When you were true

I yell yell

I run run

You know me better than this

Not like this

I'm glad

We never did that

Wouldn't trade it

Run run

Cause you need to

Run run

You're free to

Run run

by: dRew

written: January 20, 2008

(#112)

Little Boy

Little boy

Sits by the road

Dusty, dry road

Hot hot sun

Not much around

No noise to be found

But harmonica sound

But that boy knows of hurt

That boy, hurt but strong

Knows only one song

Jesus' blood, washes me

Jesus' blood, I am clean

Just breathes

In and out

On that harmonica

Hot hot sun

But that's sweet sound

To Him that's found

Little boy, arms around

But that boy knows of hurt

That boy, hurt but strong

Knows only one song

Jesus' blood, washes me

Jesus' blood, I am clean

Little boy

Cries by the road

Tears dry with dust

Hot hot sun

Doesn't cry for nothing

Cause there is something

There is one thing

He held me when I was beaten

He was beaten too

He holds me now

Though I'm sad and broken

He was too

But that boy knows of hurt

That boy, hurt but strong

Knows only one song

Jesus' blood, washes me

Jesus' blood, I'm clean

Little boy

Stands by the road

Boy is a man,

Far from that road

He has a son

Signs to his little boy

Jesus' blood, washes you

Jesus' blood, you are clean

On my road

Jesus' blood never failed me

Jesus' blood never failed me

Jesus' blood never failed me

by: dRew

written: January 20, 2008

(#111)

Midday

It's funny

Yesterday was so sunny

Now it's just soggy

Was white and fluffy

Then turned to gray

Makes you stretch

Just to get that release

From stretched muscles

Head's a little fuzzy

But enough about me

How are your skies today?

A shade of gray,

Or an amber from sun's ray?

Lazy and tired

Good day for a nap

Or even a road-trip

Without a map

I look out

That same coffee shop window

Now just drops of water

And gray behind

Late lunch

Coffee, and nothing

Really on my mind

Pithy conversation

The man and woman

In front of me

The words

Drunk, delivery room, and diva

All I think is one more "d"

Dimwhitted

Still drizzling

Still gray

A bit past midday

Today

Makes tomorrow

Something to look forward to

Still gray

Have to get up

Time to get back

by: Drew

written: January 18, 2008

(#108)

Oh GOD

oh GOD, can you hear me? did i just ask that? tired ideas not fully thought through. smoke rings rise from thoughts too thoughtfully constructed. as if there was such a thing. let LOVE leave you longing for more. make money mean less more and more. teach truth to all who try way too hard. and fix faith from above firmly in your eyes. have hope here in your heart and in what's not seen. but mostly, let LOVE leave you longing for more. cause i know what's in store, when you learn to love more and more and more. oh GOD, can you teach me? of course i know the answer. i'm tired of thinking through things that are not for me. there is such a thing. slow and steady in my heart... let LOVE leave you longing for more. make money mean less more and more. teach truth to all who try way too hard. and fix faith from above firmly in your eyes. have hope here in your heart and in what's not seen. but mostly, let LOVE leave you longing for more. cause there is much more, if you let it be. oh GOD, i can't see and i'm scared. i'm feeling in the dark for your hand. i'm not meant to do this on my own. individuality seems so lonely. whispered to me in the dark... let LOVE leave you longing for more. make money mean less more and more. teach truth to all who try way too hard. and fix faith from above firmly in your eyes. have hope here in your heart and in what's not seen. but mostly, let LOVE leave you longing for more. oh my GOD, don't let me leave without a light. a noise. a growing glow. and morning is coming. daylight breaks the black, and your shape is beside. why did i fear? why did i ask? why did i strain? light... oh GOD

by: Drew

written: January 18th, 2008

(#107)

A Question

My eyes are glazing over as the glass is hazing in front of me. It's amazing that despite the fact that I'm phasing, I can still see this thing that there's nothing else worth praising.

I don't want to feel alone again. Empty is not something that fills much of anything. Did you hear what I just said? I don't want to feel alone again. But just cause you don't want something, doesn't mean a thing.

A cause for reaction, but not a for subtraction from the equation. My world only clears when I take myself out of the equation. Did you hear me? My eyes readjust to the road that I must watch closely. Yesterday it was not all abust, but at least I can trust that tomorrow brings the sun. Fading lust, and growing trust reflect on my vision.

I don't want to feel alone again. Empty is not something that fills much at all. Did you hear what I just said? I don't want to feel this again. But just cause I don't want it, doesn't mean a thing.

My man is dead inside so I hold back what I've cried out for. I've often lied about this pride, but that only it spread so wide that I can't keep it inside.

But I don't want to feel alone again. Empty is not something that fills much of anything. Did you hear what I just said? I don't want to feel dead again. But just cause you don't want to die, doesn't mean there's good reason why.

A cause for distraction, different course of action in the equation. My world only makes sense when I take myself out of the equation. Now I'll fade to nothing so I can see something. I'll close my eyes. I'll lift my head. I'll stop talking... and I'll fade... so I can see you.

by: dRew

written: January 18, 2008

(#106)

Time

I miss you lately. Not like I need to hold your hand, just talk a bit. What ever happened to us? I know I messed up. But what's done is done and forgiven. At least you said it was. I love your mom. Hardly knew your dad. Love your brother and your sisters too. It's just this friendship doesn't seem true.

>>But everything doesn't turn out as it "should." What is should, but something that could, but only would if you could change time. So it's alright, so I say g'night, talk to you later I might.<<

Smiles are put-on. Never time for me it seems. You never really did go out of your way. Always did seem a little one-sided. Mistakes are double-sided. Guess I just have to let it go. I miss my friend, but my friend sees me different now. Never really saw me for me. I never claimed to be that man. Actually tried to break any illusion. But now I only  feel like I'm an intrusion. Was it a delusion, me thinking we could be good friends?

>>But everything doesn't turn out as it "should." What is should, but something that could, but only would if you could change time. So it's alright, so I say g'night, talk to you later I might.<<

You tried too hard to be strong. Wished you'd stopped and heard me talk. Always seemed so busy. Seemed to doubt if I knew what I said I knew. Seeming lack of trust in what I said.

>>But everything doesn't turn out as it "should." What is should, but something that could, but only would if you could change time. So it's alright, so I say g'night, talk to you later I might.<<

Time brings distance. Whether intended or not. We can't stop it, change it,  or control it. We can only try to use it while we have it. Slow yourself down. Time should be taken slowly. Don't try to solve everything & anything without takin it slowly. Anything worth everything is worth waiting for.

>>But everything doesn't turn out as it "should." What is should, but something that could, but only would if you could change time. So it's alright, so I say g'night, talk to you later I might.<<

I'm still sorry, I'm still changing, but now I'm at peace. Sweet release makes it easier. I worry about today, cause tomorrow worries enough as it is. The sun reflects through the coffee shop window. And TIME... reflects in my memory. Hope... you are well today.

by: dRew

written: January 16, 2008

(#105)

Come Inside

Oh oh, the morning after
A cool rain changes the air
What was cold is warm
Was warm, now cold

You can be so fickle
But I guess you're allowed
It's your prerogative, just not
Very attractive to me

Well, you'll find your way back
Back to warmer weather
You seem so cold now
Just need some rain clouds
You'll find your way back

Whether the weather likes it or not
It changes with changing seasons
Almost like she changes
Like for a date

Winter is formal
Summer is fun
Spring is just woke up
And Fall is when she's falling apart

Well, I'm convinced
You'll find your way back
To warmer weather
You seem to need some rain clouds
You'll find your way back

Whether the weather likes it or not
She changes with changing seasons
Almost like she changes
Like for a big day

Could just be
A matter of a degree
Could change everything
Just change your eyes

Now I'm convinced
You'll find your way back
To warmer weather
You seem to need some rain clouds
You'll find your way back

Whether the weather likes it or not
She changes with changing seasons
Almost like she changes
Cause she knows, she has to

If she doesn't
She'll be winter all the time
Can't stay out in the cold
It's lonely there

Whether your weather changes or not
We'll still love you the same
It's just warmer when you smile
So come inside for a while


by: Drew
written: January 14, 2008
(#103)

Crop Circles (On Things Above)

Are we alone now?
Seems silent out here
All but the sound of cricket and wind

Do u remember the time?
The field reminds me of
Sun's getting lower so it looks golden

Do you still fear the same?
I'm not the same as before
I don't fear the same things, I'm okay

I don't think that she'll leave me anymore
Not afraid of abandonment like before
Life of fear is more ironic than anything else

So what if there's crop circles
In my fields
Are we alone now?
Or is someone out there?
You'll just have to trust me
We're not alone now

If you think you're alone
I doesn't matter if you are
or if you're not

At that moment
You can remember before
Everything seems better then

Are you still afraid?
Then set your mind
On things above

I don't think that she'll leave me anymore
Not afraid of abandonment like before
This smile's been here a while

So what if there's crop circles
In my fields
Are we alone now?
Or is someone out there?
You'll just have to trust me
We're not alone now

Close your eyes
Say a prayer
You're not alone now

At that moment
Crop circles in your mind
Suddenly make sense like never before

Are you still afraid?
Then set your mind
On things above

We're never really alone
Never fear abandonment any more
Cause you're not by yourself

So what if there's crop circles
In my fields
Are we alone now?
Or is someone out there?
You'll just have to trust me
We're not alone now

What you ask?
Open your eyes now
Still quiet, still dark
You're not alone out here


by: Drew
written: January 14, 2008
(#102)