Without Reservation

It took me a while to process this 

I've kept it to my self for some time 

And now that I'm walking more stable 

I guess I'm far more able 

To say it aloud 

I ask this of you 

But not aloud 

Just in a rhetorical verbal process  

So is it just that you're scared? 
Don't just say that you love me 
It's okay to be afraid 
I just can't see you 
Till I'm convinced otherwise 

Cause right now I'm too far along 
I see you with our boy 
Walking toward me 
Can't you see 

But that fades 
When I realize 
That you don't love me 
Cause you did what you did 

But now I see 

That I was way too 

Focused on the the me 

In the conversation 

Did I just lose a friend 

I asked myself 
In all this that we've done 
Guess we have to decide 
If we'll let each other back inside 

Some mornings 
You gotta drag yourself 
Outta bed, mind pulls your body along 
Convince yourself the day's not that long 

But that's not living 

That's just existing 

The melodies of life 

Faintly work their way back in 

And I'm smiling now 

I am happy for you 

Happy like a brother should be 

And after all this 

I'm not all composed to describe 

But I am happy 

Sister, I truly love you 

Like a brother should 

Wish you all the best 

I smile, and the melody of the day 

Rings in your happiness 

And after all this 

I reminisce 

Life's not all about bliss 

But happiness comes in the waiting 

And the listening, and in the patience 

I haven't arrived 

I haven't been deprived 

And I haven't seen nearly all my life 

Now I am smiling 

Happy for you, without reservation 

by: Drew 

written: February 14th, 2009 (but processed for a year) 

(#129) 

All the best sister:). I'm so happy for you. I can't wait to meet him.