Mortar

Are we building walls

That just crumble

Is the mortar and stuff

Just not enough

To hold together

When you build

You hope

And you dream

Sometimes you build

You tear down

And then you come back again

What was built can be more

Than you ever thought before

I wish that I knew

More than I know

But I know more

Than I thought I would

Sometimes it's not how hard you work

More the thought behind it

Cry out all you want to

But it's not about that at all

Wisdom is something built

And you don't give it liberally

I can ask

If don't, how can I expect

To get more than frustration

Sometimes you build

You tear down

And then you come back again

What was built can be more

Than you ever thought before

I don't wanna hear that

At times

But there is peace

In these walls that you've built

I saw you at the corner

Of 29th and Last Week

It not all that far

From 4 streets ago

I asked you where

I could find it

You just smiled

And changed my direction

Sometimes you build

You tear down

And then you come back again

What was built can be more

Than you ever thought before

Are we building walls

That just crumble

Is the mortar and stuff

Just not enough

To hold together

I asked you

What's your name

Still smiling

You already know it

And I smiled back...

by: Drew

written: March 27, 2009

(#132)

The Conversation

Cynicism is like cataracts
Slowly a haze forms in our eyes
Your vision is more than blurred
No way, I ain't gonna do that again
You say to yourself

And while we talk
We just met but I've already had
Countless conversations in my head
Before the date is over
I've already made up my mind

You have got to trust
In the idea that you can't know
What will happen
And that's okay

Cause there will come a day
When you won't have these questions
But you're not there yet
So stop your grasping
And love what you've got

Three days later
I'm just sitting listening to others
My mind wanders, looking in the distance
How can one be so optimistic one day
Then so dismissive the next

Glimpses of a chance
That falls flat once again
Hard not to get cynical
You can always smile and walk past

But if I never try
Anyone could see that gets me nowhere
But I can't let it mess me up
Anyone knows pain lost is peace gained

As we write back and forth
She says
I'm gonna be honest with you

You're worth more than that
You give yourself away
Way too easily
You're worth more than that

Do you still see your dreams
Do you want to build something
You and I aside
There's still time

So I feel like my eyes have cleared a bit
Maybe slowly, but at least I can see
Though we had that conversation
Four years ago
It still rings in my ear


by: Drew
written: March 26, 2009 to January 21, 2011
(#139)

Creeping Hour

In this creeping hour

Mine is the only light for miles

Something serene about know that

I rest in my thoughts

A lot of things seem outta whack

Surprisingly not that worried

It's enough to know that change is happenin

I can just embrace it

When I come out the other end

There's some I've left behind

But so is life

People grow apart

As we're getting older

And a boy becomes a man

There's no hard feelings

Just not a need to carry on

I'm comforted in the knowledge

That I don't have to worry

It's enough to know that change is happenin

I can just embrace it

I'm not all the things I thought I'd be

And there's more that I've done

Than I thought I would

And that's not due to me

You've blessed me as I've walked

You've blessed me as I've seen

I'm sure that if I let fear in

It'd help me none

I've done that before...

It's enough to know that change is happenin

I can just embrace it

Change is not always good

But sometimes it's better than here

After all this thinking I know

I can come back to this tomorrow

It's enough to know change is happening

And that's enough for me

by: Drew

written: March 25, 2009

(#131)