Why am I not surprised?
The inner cynic
Seems to have started to win out
And then come the walls
The walls, these defenses
Done this before
This could take some time
Why I ask myself?
Why I ask you?
You want good things for me... Right?
After the walls are up
Jaw tightly clenched
Then comes the anger
I know in my mind
I'm never justified in it
It doesn't change a thing
But is it necessary?
Else it be bottled
Never dealt with
What it comes down to
Is do I trust you?
I'm tired
Haven't been around
Started to tend toward solitude
I think I just needed to get this out
Yeah I'm disappointed
Yeah I'm tired
And yes I don't think I know
The definition of "hope"
I guess I just take a step forward
Try to deal with it as it comes
Know I can trust
Know I don't have to know
Deal with my anger and disappointment
And I just need to rest
by:Drew
written: July 14, 2010
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