In The Intermissions

so long ago. not so long ago. just seems that way. come out and play. love love is not so far as it seems. seems like it should be easier. just wait. just quiet your self. just workin, dealing with stress, sleeping, and frolicking in the intermissions. hopefully I'll catchya before too long. i've been meaning to drop by the house sometime. i shall have to do that sometime in the next week or so. don't have to see you all the time. when i do it's nice. as if then never happened. sit for hours. just listen. just workin, dealing with stress, and frolicking in the intermissions. children don't really care. so what if you're dirty from where you've been. i'm dirty too. but you can't stay dirty. mom told me so. she always know what to say. just quiet. just breath. just workin, dealing with life, and frolicking in the intermissions. never learned the meaning of capitalize. on a situation. it's okay. it's alright. but you do have to grow up. And learn to capitalize. On a situation. Just stop. Just working isn't enough. Just dealing won't get you by. Sleeping will help you with the rest. Frolic sounds so childish. But we could use a little more "like a child" in our every day. So, work, deal, and sleep. But above all play in the intermissions.


by: Drew
written: January 14, 2008
(#104)

Can't Let Me Down

We pray to our gods of money
And to our bodies
Sweet like honey
And it's funny

Cause I see the temporary
And I think it contrary
To grasp for a mist
Cause when you open your fist
All you see is disappointment

Jesus can't let me down
He's the one I can count on
In a smile, in a frown
He won't let me down

I don't wanna listen to Youth
It tells me to live it up
I prefer the truth
Need no sign for proof
Cause I can just go on Your word

Don't wanna be
That wicked and perverse generation
Raise my eyes up
To wait on your voice

Cause I see the temporary
And I think it contrary
To grasp for a mist
Cause when you open your fist
All you see is frustration

Jesus can't let me down
He's the one I can count on
In a smile, in a frown
He won't let me down

When days run into the next
Nothing new under the sun
I smile, not perplexed
Cause you said it'd be this way
So I can count on...

Not me, not my
Not my generation
Not answers from foolish Youth
But seek... and wait... and listen

(quietly)
He can't let me down...
He won't let me down...
Jesus can't let me down...
His blood's never NOT enough...
In a smile in a frown
He's never let me down

(louder)
Our gods of money
Oh oh honey
And your little body
(quiet) they fade, but...

(louder now)
Jesus can't let me down --Jesus can't let me down--
He's the one I can count on --Can't let me down--
In a smile, in a frown --Can't let me down--
He won't let me down --Jesus can't let me down--
Jesus can't let me down --... Jesus can't let me down--

by: Drew
written: Sept 2007-January 6, 2008
(#101)

One long breathe

Jaw clenched
Heart aches
Breath heavy
One long breathe

I hate that feeling

Almost pity my self-pity

But then I realize

I am lame in that moment

Eyes blank

Feel tired

Look around

One long breathe

Say it's not real
It wasn't supposed to be like this

Things are such amiss

Say it's not done

Your hand

Our failure

The past

One long breathe

At least we know

There's always tomorrow

I'm not who I used to be

Don't even like that guy

Many reasons

Countless seasons

Look ahead

One long breathe

I'm not that man anymore

I keep telling myself

I've run from so many

But can't run from myself

I've seen a miracle

I've seen a change

I've seen new life

And now I've seen life new

Jaw clenched
Stars above 
Breath easy
One long breathe

Time passes

Seasons change

Men grow old

And I'm not stuck to me anymore

I don't need to know the "When?"
Don't need the "Why?"
Life's so dry

When your always asking

And never listening

by: dRew

written: January 19, 2008

(#109)

This Too Will Pass

What seems, right now
Like such hell
Because you feel
Like you fell
It will eventually
Be forgotten

You can't just blame
The things and pain
Of your past
And your shame
So just stand up

You say you need
To take some time
Just please know
That times heals
And this too will pass

We all go through
Things that blew
Our heart away
We never knew
How hard it'd be

I hope and pray
This seeming wound
Of a friend
Turns to happiness
In the end

You say you need
To take some time
Just please know
That times heals
And this too will pass

I hope you know
If you were on the other end
Of this thing
You, I would defend

You can't run away
From who you are
But you can
Change from what you've been
And start again

You say you need
To take some time
Just please know
That times heals
And this too will pass

Cause every day
Wakes up new
When she lights up
With the dew

You say you need
To take some time
Just please know
That times heals
And this too will pass

So sister please
If you remember
Just one thing
Just please know
That this will pass

I know that you
Took some time
So please know
That just as time will pass
This too will pass


by: Drew
written: August 15, 2007
(#100)

This was a hard thing for you, I know. Just know that it doesn't last forever and that you are already forgiven. The hardest part will be the walking out of the aftermath with your friends.

Glazed Look in My Eye

It just hurts that if I never said anything
We could be talking right now
More than a friend
Can hurt so bad
I know we need to reset
Back to something that was
Before I even knew you

Misunderstood is not so bad
I'm just forever glad
That there is one
Who never chose to run
Misunderstood, this never could
Never could be the same... whoa... oh ayo

Part of me
Wishes I could undo
Getting to know you
Such deep friends
Becomes a dangerous thing
And sometimes I fear I made a mistake
Did I mistake a sister for something other
I miss you, but I can take away the past
Not everything can last
No, not the past

Misunderstood is sometimes a choice
I will choose not to voice
Everything in my head
You never chose to turn your head
Misunderstood, this never could
Never could be the same... whoa... oh ayo

I know that you never really trusted my intentions
And many good reasons why
But that doesn't change
Some of the nights I'd cry
Like loosing a sister
Just to gain a passerby
So much fewer words now
Very little said

Just hear bits and pieces from friends
How you are and...
Letting go is always hard
I don't know why I do this to myself
Why do I revisit what maybe never really was
Most people, even you, misunderstand me
Little things
But these little things can hurt the most

Misunderstood can easily be put on myself
When I choose to put on the shelf
Everything I've waited for
Sometimes hear myself saying more
Misunderstood, this very well could
Be what I really need... whoa... oh ayo

You've never invited me there
Thought I was just a city boy
It's okay, I'm rarely truly understood

Misconstrewed things may seem
But I think I catch the gleem
Of light I'm supposed to see
Cause I know you'll never leave
Misunderstood, can be so good
Cause it draws me near to you... wooo... oh ayo

I guess time heals things that words can not
And He heals what I break and try to mend
Things that I could never send
And prayers that never end
I would break if I relied on me
It's okay cause now I can see
Where you stood.

by: Drew
written: August 2, 2007
(#96)

About me (you ask)

Well honestly, sometimes I'm scared to death of growing up. Then other times I'm so ready to move to the next stage in my life. I sometimes still feel like a boy, yet there are so many things in my life that are those of a man. Most people don't know the serious side of me or take the time to get to know it. I'm good at hiding what I'm thinking. I love quality time and conversation. I love those friendships that you discover years after you met someone. I've learned that one of the deepest relationships you will ever have with a person might be with a person that you have already met, but haven't taken the time to just sit down and ask, who the heck are you... deep down? My deepest relationship is also the relationship that I've probably hurt the most too. But Jesus is far more forgiving than I ever will be. He takes my broken pieces and continues to pick them up and mend what I've broken. Only 3 women in my life have seen me cry, one is my mom. At the core of me, I've been made with an artists heart that continues to want to create and see the beauty in every part of life. Human perception aside from God is a falicy. Men think too much of what they think and not enough of what their creator thinks. I love to write and it is one of the ways that I process what I'm thinking. Some people think that they know me, but they definitely know a small facet of me. There are probably 2 or 3 humans on this earth that have touched every facet of my being. I talk too much. I have made many mistakes in my life, but every day is a new day and a new slate. I have learned that vanity is the core of lust, pride, and the American Pop Culture. The grass is rarely greener on the other side, you're just near-sighted. The point in life is not to never fall down, it's to look far enough ahead so that you don't trip over the frigging rock in front of you. If you do fall, get up and stop crying about it. My little brother is probably the best friend I've ever had. I've learned not to continually look around for someone more important. Probably the one or ones who you need to make the most important are the ones you've known since they saw you come out of the womb (or out of said person's womb). I've stopped trying to be politically correct. I don't worry so much about pleasing people that I forget that I was never put on this earth with the intention of pleasing man. I've learned to say I'm sorry. One of my biggest fears is that I'll marry a woman and she will fall out of love with me. For me, divorce is not an option. I want to marry my best friend. I love long walks... off of a short pier! It's fun to get a lil wet sometimes. Love should never be luke-warm. Love is patient, love is kind, love is not boastful, love is not rude, and love keeps no record of wrong. I've learn that I'm incapable of love on my own. When I try to grasp onto something or someone it is not the same love as the love of I Corinthians 13. Don't worry about tomorrow, it has enough worries of it's own.

by: Drew
written: January 14, 2007
(#94)