Into The Sun

The sun's going down

in front of me

I pull the visor a little lower

I sometimes drive

down Broad

Wondering to myself

Will today be the day

I just keep going

The day I don't stop

and turn around

The day I leave this same

old town

Today I went a little farther

than I had before

And I honestly would have felt

no regret for continuing

I knew that but

I've never been a fan of quitting

or running away

But sometime, and some day

Maybe it's better than

the alternative

Driving toward the sun

Echoes of what could've been

Nothing these days

seems simple

Or even like it accomplishes

a thing

Do I just lay back down

And see what tomorrow brings

I don't think I will

Because "could be"

can sting

If I live in regret

I've never felt

like I really fit

Never had that sense

of belong

Please don't interrupt

I'm almost done

with this part of my song

This time, this time

is of the essence

Deal with it early

and deal with it quick

Else this thing

could eat you

Warm sun

on my face when I say

Though I'm all over the place

With these thoughts

Somehow what I want to say

is that this day's almost done

And on that note

I have no regrets about it

So sometimes just listening

to my head instead of

my heart

Is the best thing

especially when

I see no end in site

So goodbye, sleep well

Good night

by: Drew

written: May 9, 2009

(#134)

Off Cue (Book)

Well let me put it this way 

If you read 2 chapters of a book 

You can't hope to really know the plot 

 

So if you don't let anyone read you 

How can you expect someone 

To get your story 

 

Words say my next step 

Is this truth or fiction 

Words mark my way 

Seems like there's way too much friction 

I guess I'll have to drop that line 

Cause I'm off cue 

I'll be fine 

 

I like to think I'm an open book 

But sometimes I think I divert 

To fiction to detract from my bio 

 

Cause, oh Lord, sometimes it takes too long 

To read the whole book 

And it gets longer every day 

 

Words say my next step 

Is this truth or fiction 

Words mark my way 

Seems like there's way too much friction 

I guess I'll have to drop that line 

Cause I'm off cue 

I'll be fine 

 

I don't even recognize the main character 

But only at times 

There's glimpses in clips and phrases 

As I look back on old scripts 

 

Evening's past 

One's heart can become too entwined 

As a wise man said 

Don't awaken love until it so desires 

 

Dusty paths walked down 

Talks that last till 3am 

Sitting alone even in a crowded room 

Stars shared that make you feel so small 

 

Words say my next step 

Is this truth or fiction 

Words mark my way 

Seems like there's way too much friction 

I guess I'll have to drop that line 

Cause I'm off cue 

I'll be fine 

 

All these chapters must add up 

To some kind of happy ending 

Cause what kind of story finishes so flat 

 

That's why there's hope in the 11th hour 

Cause ya gotta know pieces will fit together 

And a conclusion will finish this part of the story 

 

Maybe I jumped the gun 

This is no conclusion 

This just sets the final conflict 

In this story 

 

And the final words 

Don't know if I'm telling myself 

Of if this is from you 

What's past is past 

Please just trust me 

And I trust your eyes 

But I don't trust mine 

It's okay you tell me 

I know you've failed 

You touch my shoulder

I'll help you walk through

This final part

Words say my next step 

Is this truth or fiction 

Words mark my way 

Seems like there's way too much friction 

I decide to drop my line 

Cause I'm off cue 

I'll be fine  

 

Is this truth or fiction 

Words mark my way 

There's on final thing to say 

I'll have to drop my line 

I'll be fine 

 

by: Drew

written: April 29th, 2009

(#133)

Distance From There To Now

Lately, I'm runnin low on a lot of things

It's like I bypassed a better thing

And no matter how much I write and sing

This is a one way street

So here's a new day

Understanding, walking with me in my shoes

Don't know if I'll ever find that

Disappointment's like a drug I can't stop taking

And you cry

Please come back to me

You don't need to run

Please don't run

You can wake up new, just wait and see

You know my pen is drying out, my voice is done

Every day is a new day you still say

I can choose redemption

And ignore the pull on me

That's driving me down

I slept past today

Maybe cause I need to jolt this feeling

It's as if I can start now

And stop searching in the mud

So logic's taken holiday today

Fairer day than than would be today

Far cry from here

And you cry

Please come back to me

Don't run

Please don't run

You can wake up new, you'll see

My pen is dry, my voice is gone

I smile, cause it's kind of nice

That you're the only one

As I've closed my ears and run

You meet me each morning

With the rising golden sun

And these three years have been tough

You know more than anyone

Especially these last six months

You pull up my eyes

Not all is lost,

I've failed enough,

Trying on my own

Come back to me

Don't run

Oh please don't run

You wake up new

Pen is dry, voice slowly begun

Distance from there to now

Story stops suddenly

So sad so I say something

But funny thing about that is

Sadness can bring greater things

Once it is done

Wake up new

Write this down

Not all is lost, let me be

The last thing you hear

As you open your eyes

by: Drew

written: May 24, 2009

(#135)

Compromise

We sit at a cafe
You don't say much
But that says to me
We know there's nothing to be said

Distance to the sun
Long as it's been
I'm not nearly there
Till body and soul separate
It's never too late

With temperature rising
I can't afford compromising
I look me in the mirror
Do you even recognize
In all my ponderings
In all these wonderings
Do I even recognize me

As we stroll down the sidewalk
A late fall day
The leaves are changing
And so are we
Light conversation mixes with the colors

With every compromise
That I make
I set a spark to my soul
That can't be put out easy
Why am I just now realizing

It's one thing for life
To turn out different
It's another to do
What you knew you would never do
So why am I just now realizing

With temperature rising
I can't afford compromising
I look me in the mirror
Do you even recognize
In all my ponderings
In all these wonderings
I think I recognize me

Cause we're not what we do
We're not what we say
We were never meant to be this way
And we never have to say
This is how it's always gonna be

Like a sickness
Compromise slowly takes hold
But only cause you let yourself
Be near what you knew would pollute
Your very soul

Obviously you're just a metaphor
Or a shadow of past
You're a mix of many a soul
But you're no less real
Neither is how I feel

I can't afford compromising
I look me in the mirror
In all my ponderings
In all these wonderings
One thing is clear

We're not what we do
We're not what we say
We were never meant to be this way


by: Drew
written: January 17, 2011
(#138)

Close My Eyes (More Than Breathing)

When you sit here
Feels like your trapped
In this empty shell

Battles you thought you'd won
Seem to well back up again
Sometimes it shakes you
But waking is what you need

Just let me get acclimated.
It's more than I'd anticipated
Cause it wasn't just me that's made it

I can't stay too long
And don't you dare fake it
As if you've really feigned
From that, my heart is pained

And as I look around
I'm surrounded
What I'm lookin for
Still haven't found it

Something's gotta give.
Something's gotta tell
Me it's worth it.

Just let me get acclimated.
It's more than I'd anticipated
Cause it wasn't just me that's made it

I can't stay too long
And don't you dare fake it
As if you've really feigned
From that, my heart is pained

And the battle will subside
Perspective is everything
When everything is out of focus
And I know this

God put me here for more than breathing
He gives me hope
I can't just turn to fear

I shake myself awake
It's simple for me
I see your eyes
All you want it love

I wonder why it's hard to trust that
Despite how far I've come
So I close my eyes
Sight is more than eyes

Just let me get acclimated.
It's more than I'd anticipated
Cause it wasn't just me that's made it

I can't stay too long
But it's long enough

He put me here for more than breathing
He gives me hope
So I close my eyes
Sight seems clear now

I can't stay too long
But it's long enough


by: Drew
written: June 14, 2010
(#136)

Mortar

Are we building walls

That just crumble

Is the mortar and stuff

Just not enough

To hold together

When you build

You hope

And you dream

Sometimes you build

You tear down

And then you come back again

What was built can be more

Than you ever thought before

I wish that I knew

More than I know

But I know more

Than I thought I would

Sometimes it's not how hard you work

More the thought behind it

Cry out all you want to

But it's not about that at all

Wisdom is something built

And you don't give it liberally

I can ask

If don't, how can I expect

To get more than frustration

Sometimes you build

You tear down

And then you come back again

What was built can be more

Than you ever thought before

I don't wanna hear that

At times

But there is peace

In these walls that you've built

I saw you at the corner

Of 29th and Last Week

It not all that far

From 4 streets ago

I asked you where

I could find it

You just smiled

And changed my direction

Sometimes you build

You tear down

And then you come back again

What was built can be more

Than you ever thought before

Are we building walls

That just crumble

Is the mortar and stuff

Just not enough

To hold together

I asked you

What's your name

Still smiling

You already know it

And I smiled back...

by: Drew

written: March 27, 2009

(#132)

The Conversation

Cynicism is like cataracts
Slowly a haze forms in our eyes
Your vision is more than blurred
No way, I ain't gonna do that again
You say to yourself

And while we talk
We just met but I've already had
Countless conversations in my head
Before the date is over
I've already made up my mind

You have got to trust
In the idea that you can't know
What will happen
And that's okay

Cause there will come a day
When you won't have these questions
But you're not there yet
So stop your grasping
And love what you've got

Three days later
I'm just sitting listening to others
My mind wanders, looking in the distance
How can one be so optimistic one day
Then so dismissive the next

Glimpses of a chance
That falls flat once again
Hard not to get cynical
You can always smile and walk past

But if I never try
Anyone could see that gets me nowhere
But I can't let it mess me up
Anyone knows pain lost is peace gained

As we write back and forth
She says
I'm gonna be honest with you

You're worth more than that
You give yourself away
Way too easily
You're worth more than that

Do you still see your dreams
Do you want to build something
You and I aside
There's still time

So I feel like my eyes have cleared a bit
Maybe slowly, but at least I can see
Though we had that conversation
Four years ago
It still rings in my ear


by: Drew
written: March 26, 2009 to January 21, 2011
(#139)

Creeping Hour

In this creeping hour

Mine is the only light for miles

Something serene about know that

I rest in my thoughts

A lot of things seem outta whack

Surprisingly not that worried

It's enough to know that change is happenin

I can just embrace it

When I come out the other end

There's some I've left behind

But so is life

People grow apart

As we're getting older

And a boy becomes a man

There's no hard feelings

Just not a need to carry on

I'm comforted in the knowledge

That I don't have to worry

It's enough to know that change is happenin

I can just embrace it

I'm not all the things I thought I'd be

And there's more that I've done

Than I thought I would

And that's not due to me

You've blessed me as I've walked

You've blessed me as I've seen

I'm sure that if I let fear in

It'd help me none

I've done that before...

It's enough to know that change is happenin

I can just embrace it

Change is not always good

But sometimes it's better than here

After all this thinking I know

I can come back to this tomorrow

It's enough to know change is happening

And that's enough for me

by: Drew

written: March 25, 2009

(#131)

Thin

The dawn of day

New things we do and say

This sense of the unseen

Makes me wonder

How could I feel stuck

But I do

Though in revelation I see

That I'm not

But before too long

My heart will catch up to my head

When we wake

We're still in our skin

When we dream

What we see seems so thin

But when I dream

I dream of tomorrow

And what is better than today

But today is where tomorrow begins

So my song is hope

The shore my mind washes up on

Is sometimes far from others

My heart is heavy

And I feel alone

I would never take it back

These years

That seem so long

And when I look back...

by: Drew

written: March 11, 2009

(# 130)