Forgot To Love You

I sat and listened to you sing to me
I've fallen in love with you two times before
Don't know if my heart could take any more
Falling again, it might not ever
Waken again.
I'm so sorry, I forgot to love you
I'm so sorry, for so much now
I'm all alone & I've closed up my heart
How could anyone break thru
I just wanna love you
And be loved by you.
I hear the words that your heart sings
And I put a wall on my heart
Can't let anything break it apart
For fear that if broken
My heart won't mend.
I'm so sorry, I forgot to love you
I'm so sorry, for so much now
I'm all alone & I've closed up my heart
How could anyone break thru
I just wanna love you
And be loved by you.
We talked about it the other night
Finally, we talked after three long years
I don't know if it did much, I fear
Cause we've just taken time
My heart's spent.
I'm so sorry, I forgot to love you
I'm so sorry, for so much now
I'm all alone & I've closed up my heart
How could anyone break thru
I just wanna love you
And be loved by you.
I watched you last night as you sang
On a barstool in the Cafe, and I hoped to get out
Without someone seeing me cry as you sang about
Kissing a boy who I knew
Would never be me.
And I'm sorry, I forgot to love you
But you forgot to love me too
Now I'm alone, wishing you were here
To sing to me the whole night thru
I just wanna love you
And be loved by you.
And I'm sorry, I'll write you a letter
Knowing that I will never
Be enough for you.


by: Drew
July 16, 2005
(#52)
This song was written about one of my dearest friends. She and I have been friends for over three years, and I've fallen in love with her. We've hung out all the times sometimes and I've felt like we compliment each other so well, not verbally but relationally... you know what I mean. I love that she is so in love with her family. I love to hear her sing from her heart. I love hearing what the Lord is doing in her life and how he is challenging her. There are so many things about her that I love, but one of the things that I love the most is making her laugh. She is the most beautiful girl that I know, and most of you beauty is in her heart... that doesn't mean that she's not beautiful, because she is. I want to write her a letter saying that I know that I will never be what she thinks she needs, and we can just move on in our friendship. Not to say that I don't wish that she looked on me with as loving eyes as I look on her, but such is life... you can't make someone love you.

Adore Me

I've been spending a lot of time
By myself lately
Had a lot of things crawl thru my mind
I cry more than I used to

When I'm by myself I've felt even more
By myself n alone
Even more than I ever have before
No one to talk

So much I miss that's long gone
Her being near to me, endearingly
Just hearing me, adore me
And I feel sunshine

I find myself just driving sometimes
I cry frequently
All my friends see none of these times
Just this facade

So much I miss that's long gone
Her being near to me, endearingly
More than anything, I miss her adore me
And I feel sunshine

I hate money n I hate things
Days just drag
Everyday is meaningless, it stings
Dreamy eyes where'd you go?

Sometimes I wish that life
Didn't have to change
I feel a stranger in my own life
Too many things changed lately

So much I miss that's long gone
Her being near to me, endearingly
Just hearing me, adore me
Sunshine on my face

Changes, why can't that moment last?
I look in the mirror
I'm looking for the boy in my past
The boy, used to be

I used to imagine, I used to dream then
I don't dream anymore
Tears in my eye, to be so innocent again
I'd give up this for that

So much I miss that's long gone
Her being near to me, endearingly
More than anything, I miss her adore me
Sunshine so warm now

I miss you so much now
I'd never say
Afraid if I say it aloud
It would be true
So much I miss that's long gone
Her being near to me, adoring me
Sun's made it's way thru the trees
So far down, I no longer see
It's getting colder now


by: Drew
July 09, 2005
( #51)

I've missed being loved lately. I miss being adored more than anything. I miss being truly known, and known well. I miss a womanly touch in my life. I've thought more and more about leaving this town. Sometimes I feel that I don't want to make myself vulnerable again. I don't want someone to see me in my weakness. I cry more than I ever have. I sometimes feel like I have nobody to talk to. I find myself going on so many walks, never with someone beside me though. I feel more alone and like no one can even see these words that are the pain of my heart. Sometimes I pray for my eyes to open from this seemed dream. I'm so tired. I'm cold inside, like the sun doesn't shine in my daylife anymore. I miss having endearing qualities about me...