Not Like This

I hate this

I never should have said a thing

Was it always about me?

Mistakes are funny that way

No matter how far away

They still are always

What was wrong

Cause I never thought it'd turn out

Not like this

Never like this

Don't wanna fake it

This memory of you

Just wanna take it

Away from here

Make it go away

I hate how this

Has turned out like this

Why I say why?

Misdirected and misunderstood

I was younger, and I should

Have slowed n understood

What was wrong

Cause I never thought it'd turn out

Not like this

Never like this

Don't wanna fake it

This memory of you

Just wanna take it

Away from here

Make it go away

Saw him today

The man who hurt you so bad

Remember you forgave him

And you asked me that question

What if daddy never forgave

And I reassured you He gave

Far more than that

Cause I never thought it'd turn out

Not like this

Never like this

Don't wanna fake it

This memory of you

Just wanna take it

Away from here

Make it go away

I've wished this so many times

Now it seems

I can only walk away

I won't see you as much as before

Sorry I made u feel that way

They say it's never too late

But it seems that way

Good night

See you around

See you later

by: dRew

written: January 20, 2008

(#113)

written for someone who used to be a dear dear friend. some things in life just have to be let go of. this friendship seems to be one of those things. i see her sometimes, but it's never really a friendship. apparently i creeped her out, and that hurts me more than anything. that's enough to bring tears to my eyes. thinking back to how much we've shared and invested, i'm just so sad about it whenever i even think about it. i try not to much anymore. maybe that's bad. it's a way of coping. well, barefoot girl, hope we can trust each other again some day...