Adore Me

I've been spending a lot of time
By myself lately
Had a lot of things crawl thru my mind
I cry more than I used to

When I'm by myself I've felt even more
By myself n alone
Even more than I ever have before
No one to talk

So much I miss that's long gone
Her being near to me, endearingly
Just hearing me, adore me
And I feel sunshine

I find myself just driving sometimes
I cry frequently
All my friends see none of these times
Just this facade

So much I miss that's long gone
Her being near to me, endearingly
More than anything, I miss her adore me
And I feel sunshine

I hate money n I hate things
Days just drag
Everyday is meaningless, it stings
Dreamy eyes where'd you go?

Sometimes I wish that life
Didn't have to change
I feel a stranger in my own life
Too many things changed lately

So much I miss that's long gone
Her being near to me, endearingly
Just hearing me, adore me
Sunshine on my face

Changes, why can't that moment last?
I look in the mirror
I'm looking for the boy in my past
The boy, used to be

I used to imagine, I used to dream then
I don't dream anymore
Tears in my eye, to be so innocent again
I'd give up this for that

So much I miss that's long gone
Her being near to me, endearingly
More than anything, I miss her adore me
Sunshine so warm now

I miss you so much now
I'd never say
Afraid if I say it aloud
It would be true
So much I miss that's long gone
Her being near to me, adoring me
Sun's made it's way thru the trees
So far down, I no longer see
It's getting colder now


by: Drew
July 09, 2005
( #51)

I've missed being loved lately. I miss being adored more than anything. I miss being truly known, and known well. I miss a womanly touch in my life. I've thought more and more about leaving this town. Sometimes I feel that I don't want to make myself vulnerable again. I don't want someone to see me in my weakness. I cry more than I ever have. I sometimes feel like I have nobody to talk to. I find myself going on so many walks, never with someone beside me though. I feel more alone and like no one can even see these words that are the pain of my heart. Sometimes I pray for my eyes to open from this seemed dream. I'm so tired. I'm cold inside, like the sun doesn't shine in my daylife anymore. I miss having endearing qualities about me...