I heard I dropped the ball again
Loyalty slipped thru the crack
I can't seem to move
I let her down
Sorry little sister
When can I do it right
A chill creeps up my spine
Head gets fuzzy
The feeling of empty
I thought I could just go ahead
Nobody told me I was selfish
I can't seem to move
Where did I get off
Sorry I forgot you
When can I do it right
A chill creeps up my spine
Head gets fuzzy
The feeling of empty
You said, I think I can't get back
Where we were when we were there
I can't seem to move
I'll recoil now
Sorry for what I did
When can I do it right
A chill creeps up my spine
Head gets fuzzy
That familiar feeling
The feeling of empty
I apologize for the person I've been
The same me that I've pushed away
I can't seem to move ahead
Wish I was someone else
Sorry doesn't cut it
When can I do it right
A chill creeps up my spine
Head gets fuzzy
Wish I could say it'll be fine
My old man seems so close
I'm sorry for who I've been
by: Drew
written: March 30th, 2006
(#67)
This was written after I realized that I had left a friend out in the cold for a while. I'd gotten to caught up in my new job and other things that I basically abandoned them. I have patterns in my life. Now I'm recoiling back into myself. I just kind of shut the outside out because I can't seem to "get things right." I dunno how long this will last. Why can't I just runn away from the old me?
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Where is the Connection
Where is that connection
Between word n action
I can say it all I want
But doing it seems to be so hard
Words without action
Add up to a subtraction
Who would even listen
To someone who acts that way
Do what I don wanna do
Say... what I don wanna say
Don't do what I wanna do
Don't say... what I wanna to say
Over and over
Where is the connection
If I could only do a fraction
Of all the things needing action
I'd be more at ease
With myself n my conscience
Do what I don wanna do
Say... what I don wanna say
Don't do what I wanna do
Don't say... what I wanna to say
Over and over
Where is the connection
Connection lies within decision
Breaking down that old division
Between my heart
And my scattered mind
Who knew today I'd find
Release from my disconnection
Seems ironic
To be disconnected from disconnection
But it makes sense
If you don't think too much...
by: Drew
written: March 30th, 2006
(#66)
Release is sweet, especially when it's long awaited. There's been a division in my decision making of late... but that is changing. My mind and heart would say one thing, and I'd move in a different direction than I knew was right. You ask me, why the heck would you do that? Well, because I trust myself too much sometimes. Letting go of me was all I needed to do...
Between word n action
I can say it all I want
But doing it seems to be so hard
Do what I don wanna do
Say... what I don wanna say
Don't do what I wanna do
Don't say... what I wanna to say
Over and over
Where is the connection
Words without action
Add up to a subtraction
Who would even listen
To someone who acts that way
Do what I don wanna do
Say... what I don wanna say
Don't do what I wanna do
Don't say... what I wanna to say
Over and over
Where is the connection
If I could only do a fraction
Of all the things needing action
I'd be more at ease
With myself n my conscience
Do what I don wanna do
Say... what I don wanna say
Don't do what I wanna do
Don't say... what I wanna to say
Over and over
Where is the connection
Connection lies within decision
Breaking down that old division
Between my heart
And my scattered mind
Who knew today I'd find
Release from my disconnection
Seems ironic
To be disconnected from disconnection
But it makes sense
If you don't think too much...
by: Drew
written: March 30th, 2006
(#66)
Release is sweet, especially when it's long awaited. There's been a division in my decision making of late... but that is changing. My mind and heart would say one thing, and I'd move in a different direction than I knew was right. You ask me, why the heck would you do that? Well, because I trust myself too much sometimes. Letting go of me was all I needed to do...
Runn
Am I awake or not
I can't even tell
It's funny
Asleep is how I sometimes feel
Haze covers these eyes
Advice I try not to despise
Ignore lies
Direction is all I need
I know how to runn
Just need to know from where
To get there
When I wake
From what I was under
The light is blinding my eyes
Whines can turn to cries
If I really try
Direction is all I need
I know how to runn
Just need to know from where
To get there
Locked up
Behind this old door I made
Bad habits cover my eyes
If I stop fighting n try
Stop asking why
Direction is all I need
I know how to runn
Just need to know from where
To get there
There can be here
Be who I wanna be
Runn, wake up
Runn from me
Runn to You
by: Dre3
written: March 29th, 2006
(#65)
Runn with an extra n was to emphasize my need for this... Sometimes I fell like I'm just walking when I should be running from something or towards somthing. This is definitely metaphorically. Why, when I recognize that something isn't good for me, do I just remain calm and not runn? Also, when something is GOOD, I should be running after it with zero hesitance!!
I can't even tell
It's funny
Asleep is how I sometimes feel
Haze covers these eyes
Advice I try not to despise
Ignore lies
Direction is all I need
I know how to runn
Just need to know from where
To get there
When I wake
From what I was under
The light is blinding my eyes
Whines can turn to cries
If I really try
Direction is all I need
I know how to runn
Just need to know from where
To get there
Locked up
Behind this old door I made
Bad habits cover my eyes
If I stop fighting n try
Stop asking why
Direction is all I need
I know how to runn
Just need to know from where
To get there
There can be here
Be who I wanna be
Runn, wake up
Runn from me
Runn to You
by: Dre3
written: March 29th, 2006
(#65)
Runn with an extra n was to emphasize my need for this... Sometimes I fell like I'm just walking when I should be running from something or towards somthing. This is definitely metaphorically. Why, when I recognize that something isn't good for me, do I just remain calm and not runn? Also, when something is GOOD, I should be running after it with zero hesitance!!
Dreams... where is Reality
Could have beens
End up being should have beens
That's not the way it works
Dreams with no reality
Just make me sad
I'll tell you
Dreams dictate my questions
Fall too fast
I should fight the past
Patience
Not just for doctors
Could have beens
End up being should have beens
That's not the way it works
Dreams with no reality
Just make me sad
I tell myself
Becoming cold ain't that bad
Close my door
Build a wall seems to ensure
Loneliness
Not just for a Ranger n Tonto
Could have beens
End up being should have beens
That's not the way it works
Dreams with no reality
Just make me sad
You tell me
The love I've dreamed of
Drops my defenses
I should pull down my walls n fences
Surrender
Is not just for losers
I can't let it happen again
This is no way to live my life
Vulnerability makes me so I can be hurt
But it's worth the risk
It's better than alone
I dream in color now
Real with a hint of red...
by: Drew
written: March 29th, 2006
(#64)
Don't wanna stay untouched. I do want to learn from my mistakes, but I don't wanna shut myself off from everyone in defense of my heart. I don't wanna fall in love again without marrying her...
End up being should have beens
That's not the way it works
Dreams with no reality
Just make me sad
I'll tell you
Dreams dictate my questions
Fall too fast
I should fight the past
Patience
Not just for doctors
Could have beens
End up being should have beens
That's not the way it works
Dreams with no reality
Just make me sad
I tell myself
Becoming cold ain't that bad
Close my door
Build a wall seems to ensure
Loneliness
Not just for a Ranger n Tonto
Could have beens
End up being should have beens
That's not the way it works
Dreams with no reality
Just make me sad
You tell me
The love I've dreamed of
Drops my defenses
I should pull down my walls n fences
Surrender
Is not just for losers
I can't let it happen again
This is no way to live my life
Vulnerability makes me so I can be hurt
But it's worth the risk
It's better than alone
I dream in color now
Real with a hint of red...
by: Drew
written: March 29th, 2006
(#64)
Don't wanna stay untouched. I do want to learn from my mistakes, but I don't wanna shut myself off from everyone in defense of my heart. I don't wanna fall in love again without marrying her...
Hurts to Hurt You
Just remember
When the world fades
It's beautiful to see little things
Outside ourself
Today I'll trust you with what I say
I pray that you can please understand
I know it's gonna kill
I'm sorry
But please remember
This pain that's so close now
Is far better than drawn till November
Ripping out your heart
Today I'll trust you with what I say
I pray that you can please understand
I know it's gonna kill
I'm sorry
It hurts me
That I have to hurt you
Usually when I remember
I'm reminded of the bad n not good
Just wanna be real, not a pretender
Which is why I say
Today I'll trust you with what I say
I pray that you can please understand
I know it's gonna kill
I'm sorry
It hurts me
That I have to hurt you
Voice deep inside
Whispers
I'm sorry, to be loving
I have to say no,
I'm sorry
Please understand
by: Drew
written: March 29th, 2006
(#63)
You know who you are...
When the world fades
It's beautiful to see little things
Outside ourself
Today I'll trust you with what I say
I pray that you can please understand
I know it's gonna kill
I'm sorry
But please remember
This pain that's so close now
Is far better than drawn till November
Ripping out your heart
Today I'll trust you with what I say
I pray that you can please understand
I know it's gonna kill
I'm sorry
It hurts me
That I have to hurt you
Usually when I remember
I'm reminded of the bad n not good
Just wanna be real, not a pretender
Which is why I say
Today I'll trust you with what I say
I pray that you can please understand
I know it's gonna kill
I'm sorry
It hurts me
That I have to hurt you
Voice deep inside
Whispers
I'm sorry, to be loving
I have to say no,
I'm sorry
Please understand
by: Drew
written: March 29th, 2006
(#63)
You know who you are...
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